I'm Too Hard on Myself

Look at you. Look how deep you've fallen. Look at the bruises that will never fully heal. Look how big you've become. You tell yourself that you have dreams. You tell yourself that your life has purpose. But the truth is, all this time you've just been trying to hang in there. You've been trying so hard that you actually think you're okay. Far deep inside, you're not sure about anything, not even yourself. You don't know where you want to go so you can't determine whether you're on the right track or not. They say that if you keep all the uncertainties and doubts bottled up for long, these things will blow you up eventually. Today you're going to start believing that for now, your purpose is to work on these. Or not. Maybe you just really wanna blow yourself up.